Before the year is out

I figured I better post a new blog before the year is out! So... two Sundays ago I began a new cycle. It took longer because it was a "natural" cycle about 50 days...10 more days and I'd be inquiring about meds to start my cycle, but it didn't come to that. I had a whole day of light spotting so I waited before calling the Doctor. I called on Tuesday when I was sure my cycle was "a go".

I knew the office was going on Christmas vacation but according to my math I would be eligible for a round of clomid because I ovulate so late in my cycle...about 22 days. So I called and left a message asking for a clomid prescription only to get a call back refusing my request because the office was going on vacation and monitoring would not be possible. I was a little shocked and immediately rebutted explaining that my cycle is quite long. The nurse said she would connect with my doctor and that she would call me back. That was at about 9 am and waiting all day made me crazy. I was upset because with clomid my cycle would be about 35 days and without who knows...perhaps all the way to 60 days, where I'd get meds to start it. It wasn't so upsetting that I'd have to wait another "cycle" but that the next time I'd have the change to try for ovulation would be February or March. So it was 2pm when I couldn't stand it any more and called the fertility clinic back but had to leave a message again... A few minutes later my call was returned and the nurse said Dr. K agreed to write the prescription because : the right tube might be blocked, I ovulate around day 22 (which would be plenty time to monitor after the office vacation), and I've only ever ovulated one egg when monitored on clomid. Thus I have an appointment to begin monitoring their first day back from vacation. What a relief! I'm so glad I spoke up! And I am even happier to say, as unscientific as cramps are, I think I'm going to ovulate on the left :).

As for work, we have a two week shut-down for Christmas, and during the break I feel like I've caught up with my housework, I've even had guests and will have more tomorrow. I'm glad to say I still love my job and am looking forward to finding out what the winter holds. I had the pleasure of taking family photos for some of my cousins and they turned out great (even if I do say so myself). As for depression: I feel great lately! Not to say that I don't get emotional or sad, but that I deal with those feelings immediately. I am very cognisant of the stages of grief when something upsets me now and I just let myself feel and wait for the anger. Anger, relief , and action seem to come all together at the end...I feel much more mentally healthy.

I feel like I am in a much better place just a year later and am looking forward to 2010 being even better yet!

TTFN