Wet Feet

This morning I feel like I have my feet wet. I took my first clomid pill. Here I go wading into the waters of assisted fertility. Emotionally, I am enthralled by the very possible chance of getting pregnant and allowing myself to look at baby stuff and form opinions on the gear and stuff I would use. BUT I am also keeping myself level by remembering that, like yesterday (spotting the day before), when I get my period it is a sign that my body is coming closer to a "normal" cycle and that as we move forward and the doctor helps me sort out my hormones the possibility is more real for pregnancy. So one step at a time and I feel good and stable about it...
I'll wait and see what the clomid side effects are for me and blog about them too.
As for my everyday life...work has been slow lately and I have fallen back into some of the old habits of letting housework slide for days and days. I tried a while ago to say...okay I will do three things today and when I did three I had a great sense of accomplishment. But that didn't stick. SO I tried a new way... I didn't go so far as my therapist suggested, to write down my daily plans but I do plan a time for what needs to be done. For example yesterday I said from 12 to 1 I will clean the kitchen and when 12 came I did it. Today I needed to cut the berries off my fuchsias so they will flower again, so I said at 11 I will go trim the fuchsias and a miracle happened. I think I am actually decoding my motivation... As 11 came closer I rushed and got a load of laundry in before 11 so I could keep my schedule. But it was almost a procrastination reaction...since the gardening was the scheduled task I compulsively tried to put it off by doing something else. I may finally have control over my motivation for housework. Daun Daun Daaaah! We will see!
TTFN
P.S. My major motivation for cleaning the kitchen was something I read on line about baby gear... One lady said she thought a baby bath tub was a waste because the kitchen sink works and it made her keep her sink spotless...I have early memories of bathing in the kitchen sink myself, it does work. So I thought I am trying to do things for my health that are perfectly compatible with being pregnant so why not get habits in place for if I had a baby, like a clean sink!