Wow! The follicle on my right ovary grew 7 mm over the weekend! At my appointment on Friday I asked if I could come back in 3 days instead of 2, so that we could travel to Muskoka for the weekend. Well the weekend up north did a world of good for my right ovary because it was growing only a mm every 2 or 3 days then shot up over the weekend by growing 2-3 mm a day! Too bad it isn't on my left side... the follicles really haven't grown on my left side. Oh well time will tell.
TTFN
Monday, July 27, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
The logic will keep you level...
Do you ever have something you want to know more about and you google it and click on and read those crazy message boards...Well I did that about ovulation. Ooops...Those message boards are full of support but not all that reliable for information. So my mind had a feeding frenzy on all the other "concerned women"'s questions and half answers...eventually my mind remembered one of my original questions...
Is follicle growth exponential? When I googled that I got some medical journals and I began to have clarity. Apparently there are some studies that show yes and some no. Some experts say to expect 1 to 2 mm follicular growth pre-ovulation per day. Other experts say that they will grow more per day as you move toward ovulation. I'm hoping for the exponential experience because I had a 1 mm growth from day 10 to day 13.
Additionally, I found out that it is pretty typical for a follicle to take 15 days to get from 10mm to 20mm. This sounds much better than- follicles should grow 1-2 mm per day and we need them to be 18-21 mm and they are about 10mm now. So a few days ago I was thinking I could be ovulating in like 4 days but now I realize that only growing 1 mm is not too strange. At least they're growing!
I don't know why I can't remember that I need to go to the facts to keep my mind settled and not worry. I always seem to fall into the hysteria trap on the web that is message boards. But thank goodness I found my way out once again and found some medical facts to compare myself to rather than other women's personal opinions and experiences. We are all so different and variable...Supportive, but different and variable.
TTFN
p.s. I have added 2 new links that helped me be logical today.>ovulation progress chart & >Follecular ...
Is follicle growth exponential? When I googled that I got some medical journals and I began to have clarity. Apparently there are some studies that show yes and some no. Some experts say to expect 1 to 2 mm follicular growth pre-ovulation per day. Other experts say that they will grow more per day as you move toward ovulation. I'm hoping for the exponential experience because I had a 1 mm growth from day 10 to day 13.
Additionally, I found out that it is pretty typical for a follicle to take 15 days to get from 10mm to 20mm. This sounds much better than- follicles should grow 1-2 mm per day and we need them to be 18-21 mm and they are about 10mm now. So a few days ago I was thinking I could be ovulating in like 4 days but now I realize that only growing 1 mm is not too strange. At least they're growing!
I don't know why I can't remember that I need to go to the facts to keep my mind settled and not worry. I always seem to fall into the hysteria trap on the web that is message boards. But thank goodness I found my way out once again and found some medical facts to compare myself to rather than other women's personal opinions and experiences. We are all so different and variable...Supportive, but different and variable.
TTFN
p.s. I have added 2 new links that helped me be logical today.>ovulation progress chart & >Follecular ...
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Side Effects-Go Lefty Go!
Well I must say I have had seemingly no side effects from the clomid. I had a headache one day but who's to say I wouldn't have had that normally? So far so good in the ovulation department...Its very interesting to know all the details of my own cycle but there is still so far to go. The odds are still wavering, keeping my fingers crossed for the one follicle that has stared on the left because that's the side that is open...there are three on the right but there is only a 30% chance that that tube is open. I am in flux again...wondering but knowing the logical medical reasons for and against. I have to think logically about it to prepare myself for disappointment but I love hoping for the best too!
TTFN
TTFN
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Wet Feet
This morning I feel like I have my feet wet. I took my first clomid pill. Here I go wading into the waters of assisted fertility. Emotionally, I am enthralled by the very possible chance of getting pregnant and allowing myself to look at baby stuff and form opinions on the gear and stuff I would use. BUT I am also keeping myself level by remembering that, like yesterday (spotting the day before), when I get my period it is a sign that my body is coming closer to a "normal" cycle and that as we move forward and the doctor helps me sort out my hormones the possibility is more real for pregnancy. So one step at a time and I feel good and stable about it...
I'll wait and see what the clomid side effects are for me and blog about them too.
As for my everyday life...work has been slow lately and I have fallen back into some of the old habits of letting housework slide for days and days. I tried a while ago to say...okay I will do three things today and when I did three I had a great sense of accomplishment. But that didn't stick. SO I tried a new way... I didn't go so far as my therapist suggested, to write down my daily plans but I do plan a time for what needs to be done. For example yesterday I said from 12 to 1 I will clean the kitchen and when 12 came I did it. Today I needed to cut the berries off my fuchsias so they will flower again, so I said at 11 I will go trim the fuchsias and a miracle happened. I think I am actually decoding my motivation... As 11 came closer I rushed and got a load of laundry in before 11 so I could keep my schedule. But it was almost a procrastination reaction...since the gardening was the scheduled task I compulsively tried to put it off by doing something else. I may finally have control over my motivation for housework. Daun Daun Daaaah! We will see!
TTFN
P.S. My major motivation for cleaning the kitchen was something I read on line about baby gear... One lady said she thought a baby bath tub was a waste because the kitchen sink works and it made her keep her sink spotless...I have early memories of bathing in the kitchen sink myself, it does work. So I thought I am trying to do things for my health that are perfectly compatible with being pregnant so why not get habits in place for if I had a baby, like a clean sink!
I'll wait and see what the clomid side effects are for me and blog about them too.
As for my everyday life...work has been slow lately and I have fallen back into some of the old habits of letting housework slide for days and days. I tried a while ago to say...okay I will do three things today and when I did three I had a great sense of accomplishment. But that didn't stick. SO I tried a new way... I didn't go so far as my therapist suggested, to write down my daily plans but I do plan a time for what needs to be done. For example yesterday I said from 12 to 1 I will clean the kitchen and when 12 came I did it. Today I needed to cut the berries off my fuchsias so they will flower again, so I said at 11 I will go trim the fuchsias and a miracle happened. I think I am actually decoding my motivation... As 11 came closer I rushed and got a load of laundry in before 11 so I could keep my schedule. But it was almost a procrastination reaction...since the gardening was the scheduled task I compulsively tried to put it off by doing something else. I may finally have control over my motivation for housework. Daun Daun Daaaah! We will see!
TTFN
P.S. My major motivation for cleaning the kitchen was something I read on line about baby gear... One lady said she thought a baby bath tub was a waste because the kitchen sink works and it made her keep her sink spotless...I have early memories of bathing in the kitchen sink myself, it does work. So I thought I am trying to do things for my health that are perfectly compatible with being pregnant so why not get habits in place for if I had a baby, like a clean sink!
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Will have to leave the Wharton Clinic...
I had an appointment with a Bariatric Educator at the Wharton Clinic today and as I embark further into fertility treatment, it came to mind to ask if the Wharton Clinic keeps pregnant patients. I was chatting with the BE (Dietitian) and I asked what would happen if I got pregnant. This was a question that had never come up before...so when Dr. Wharton popped in to check on how things were going, I asked him. Unfortunately, I will have to discharge from the clinic when I get pregnant. Despite the fact that weighing-in, having my blood pressure checked regularly and checking in on my nutrition at a place that specializes in helping obese people get healthy, would probably be a good idea, due to legal and insurance reasons Dr. Wharton will not be able to help me during pregnancy.
I said I guess the two are conflicting and he disagreed and told me that the latest research shows that if an obese women loses weight during pregnancy the benefits out weigh the risks (pardon the pun). I truly respect Dr. Wharton's opinions and told him that. He told me to see the nutritionist that the OB offers.
I have since "googled" and found the new research for myself and will look for help (midwife, OB, nutritionist) that supports the new way of thinking with obese pregnancies.
I'm disappointed but I guess based on older medicine the law sees pregnancy and weight management as opposing forces and I know how it takes time for bureaucracy to catch up with the latest research. We are on the edge of a change of mind with regards to the old way of thinking that with pregnancy comes weight no matter at what weight you started.
Dr. Thorton published a paper, "Perinatal Outcomes in Nutritionally Monitored Obese Pregnant Women: A Randomized Clinical Trial," that was published in the June issue of the Journal of the National Medical Association and I found a report on this paper at sciencedaily.com where I found this quote and it hit home for me. Dr. Thorton was quoted "Pregnancy has become a license to eat. We talk about 'eating for two,' but it's really more like eating for 1 and 1/20th."
Too bad I won't be able to have the Wharton Clinic help me with my 1/20th!
TTFN
P.S. I will have another BE appointment in 2 weeks because I haven't been journaling. I will have to bring 2 weeks worth of daily food journals with me to that meeting! Ooops, I guess it has finally caught up with me!;)
I said I guess the two are conflicting and he disagreed and told me that the latest research shows that if an obese women loses weight during pregnancy the benefits out weigh the risks (pardon the pun). I truly respect Dr. Wharton's opinions and told him that. He told me to see the nutritionist that the OB offers.
I have since "googled" and found the new research for myself and will look for help (midwife, OB, nutritionist) that supports the new way of thinking with obese pregnancies.
I'm disappointed but I guess based on older medicine the law sees pregnancy and weight management as opposing forces and I know how it takes time for bureaucracy to catch up with the latest research. We are on the edge of a change of mind with regards to the old way of thinking that with pregnancy comes weight no matter at what weight you started.
Dr. Thorton published a paper, "Perinatal Outcomes in Nutritionally Monitored Obese Pregnant Women: A Randomized Clinical Trial," that was published in the June issue of the Journal of the National Medical Association and I found a report on this paper at sciencedaily.com where I found this quote and it hit home for me. Dr. Thorton was quoted "Pregnancy has become a license to eat. We talk about 'eating for two,' but it's really more like eating for 1 and 1/20th."
Too bad I won't be able to have the Wharton Clinic help me with my 1/20th!
TTFN
P.S. I will have another BE appointment in 2 weeks because I haven't been journaling. I will have to bring 2 weeks worth of daily food journals with me to that meeting! Ooops, I guess it has finally caught up with me!;)
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