Training went well for my new job today. And I am so pleased to say that my "uniform" is a bright yellow t-shirt! (please note the sarcasm) I feel more confident having spent a day with 36 of my co-workers also starting contract at this time. We were a mixed group of photographers and assistants. It was interesting to watch and hear people create a social structure within the group. The photographers being superior as the "skilled" part of the group. I listened to photographers talk using photo-jargon knowing that those hired to be assistants would not really understand them. But the really funny part was that it seems the assistants have to do so much more "work".
I think this might be one of the first times of my life that I am on this side of the coin. The side of the coin where someone is "subservient" to me. I have to learn how to value and express gratitude to my assistant and yet appreciate my own valuable skills and not belittle my abilities. Confidence will continue to be important as I get comfortable in my new job. I must put my best foot forward and let my skills do the rest.
Is it weird to feel like I have the opportunity and the skills but worry that I need more confidence?
In the context of my life challenges I guess this is truly an opportunity to refine my identity. I am so grateful to be at this point, reforming myself, rather than struggling, wondering where my life has gone wrong.
Now I just have to work on having the fashion confidence to pull off a bright, and I mean bright yellow t-shirt!
TTFN
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